She is sucks

Studying in UTAR had made grown mature, and chioldish at the same time. Sounds contradict, but it's true.

Your close friend can be the one who makes your life suffer. He or she can be the one who ruins your relationship with other friends. My weakness is that I trust people easily, and everytime I was cheated, I feel heart broken, but now no more, I have seen through the reality, I have seen through the person's innerself.

He or she is the person who makes me grow, and makes me become childish in some situation. Thanks her for giving me guidelines for being a cautious adult in my future.

I'll never feel that my life is miserable because of him or her, because I am a lucky one to have soulmate and friends around me who REALLY care about me. Some people who are FAKE please stop being a fake one. Do you know that everytime when you be nice, you really look ugly? You are just like what is sang is the song <>. So please stop, keep those "uglies" with you. Even more, I am so ashamed to have you as a so-called "close friend" as indicated by others.

Apologies

This blog has been long abandoned.

I found myself so left out:from friends, from event.

I really want to tell my friends that I don't mean that I just want friends whom is beneficial to me. I really don't have the time to get update to all events.
Imagine that you have had some tough time spent on tests and assignments, you would rather have some time to rest at home rather than going far away.(Okay, this should not be an excuse, but I am really tired!)

Kavi, Wunnie, Joe, Anne, Luke, Elaine and everyone else whom I have long lost contact, please forgive me for not having time with you!

Devils

Words are stuck in my mind. Should I take it serious? I admit, I am like what she says for some of the time. I keep convincing myself that there's no need to show my ability. However, for most of the time, I did not show myself yet people and things around me. I don't know how many of them have the same feeling about me like her. If being better than others is a sin, I doubt what are acts in good faith?

Doing for the purpose of surveying, yet I was misunderstood. So I guess there is no any method for me to undergo survey unless I am given all the data.

Am I really like what she says?Or she is being jealous for what I own? I am pretty lucky compare to friends around me who face the same problem. I have friends around me, I mean really beside me to support me, cheer me up and give me hugs. I hope my friends are as lucky as me. Therefore, being in overseas isn't any too good anyhow.

Actions show your quality best yet language counts. That's why rumors are that effective. Why can't people think carefully before they talk? Don't they think that they will get what they give to other people some other time later? Devils are bad, but they are useful, in the sense that they let us appreciate good things around us.

Thank God I am not a devil. So do my TRUE friends.
(Guess no one would understand what is this all about. Yes, you better not understand, make your life free from troubles)

SPECIAL Birthday Wishing

I am on msn, Kavi is on msn. She knew it, and she sent a sms to my phone. There it goes:

Happy Birthday darling. Hope you have a very good one:) i miss you. we celebrate when i come home ok! Take care. Love you

I scolded her for wasting money.

She says she is not wasting money, cz wishing my birthday is special.
So guess how i retreat?

thanks a lot kavi for wishing me. am i wasting money for sending this sms to u?no lar, cz i 1 2 thank u. this sms is special (happened when Vi and Ceat both online)

Vi, I am good I know.hahahahahahahaha

Narracist

A narracist is often self-centered and selfish.
I am someone who is so.

I kepy complaining and get angry over his weaknesses, yet I do not agree on my own weaknesses at the same time. I act like a kid.

I am always given the best thing in the world, yet I never appreciate.

Am I suited to have a partner in my life?
Or should I live alone to have both's lifes better?

Often, I can't know how much I love, what's the extend of my love.

If material pulls my heart back, I guess that's not showing how much I love.

I am so undecided in my life. How can I improve in this?

Another blog in practical lab

The time now is 11.20am. We are still left in the lab to figure out how to use the software on our own. No one knows how to use it. And the lecturer is not teaching anything, just gives us some variables that we should input to the program.

The thing is, we don't even know how to use the program, how can we input the variables?

I even went to read the tutorial given in the program, but I am stucked half way.
So, I give up, waiting for time to pass.:)(Smile ironically)

Blog during practical

I am now sitting in a lab attending a practical class.

Why do I have the time to write blog?

It is because the tutor(he is also the lecturer) gives us a task to do on the new software introduced to us, leaving us to figure out on how to use the software, without giving any briefing.

Haha, we are to do things on our own for at least 15 minutes already.

This is the laziest teacher I have ever met!(Stop here because the typing is very loud)

Buy phone or camera?

It has been long time since last I camwhore.Not like the usual me when I don't do that. Ok, I have not been doing that for long time, so I am abnormal for this long time.

i THINK i SHOULD INSTEAD BUY A CAMERA OR A NEW HANDPHONE SO THAT iu CAN TAKE PICTURE WHENEVER i WANT.

buT HAIZ, NOT WILLING TO SPEND. WHEN CAN i START GETTING MORE MONEY??

Happy Anniversary

Today is the second anniversary for both Ben and me. Ben is still sick for getting springles and I have caught flu.

Anyhow, we still celebrate this special day(actually I think that if we are not celebrating it, it doesn't matter, since it is just 2 days after Valentine's Day)

We went Cineleisure to watch movie, guess what, we watch the one which is juct launched currently, Pink Panther 2. Even before the movie is launched, I keep thinking what it is all about. Anyway, the movie is worth watching for Ben and me, full of laughter and the pink panther hero is still the pink panther hero.(I suggest the movie to everyone!)

So then it ends and we had dinner in Kim Gary(had no appetite to eat),this is the first time Ben and me did not finish the food in this restaurant.

Afterwards, like usual, we went to see Gundam again.I wonder when is the time Ben can get all the gundam collection.

Ok, a simple anniversary. Happy anyway.

Tired

Long since last I posted.

Sometimes I really feel like giving up ging tuition. I feel I have less time to follow up on my studies, yet giving up makes me loss my source of income, further more with the extra time, I will not be studying anyway.

But this gives me more stress, I have to take care of both my and my students' studies, have to find way to teach my students in a better way.Always I find that I am a lowzy tutor.SHIT!!!!

Aiyah, a lot of things to be considered. Switching course?Not switching? The questions go through my mind uncountable times. Today I have decided not to change, tomorrow I doubt again.

Could I study law without working in legal field?Everyone should tells me of course not, I will be at the age of working soon.

Finally

Finally the day comes, and it ends.

I remember the few years back, when we were supposed to choose which way we should forward to, I kept telling myself that I will not move into the law field.

Now, I am in no choice but to take Business Law as it is a requirement in the subject.Yes, the question comes to the mind of everyone, on what is the reason that actuarial students are demanded to take law as what they deal with in the future are mainly figures in probability.

We are actually told that the reason for taking law is because actuary has to know everything in business field. So law is to protect us against making any unlawful mistake and to protect us against cheated by others who have intention to do so.

Yet in Malaysia, do all these laws work as effiective as they should? How long doers it take for a dissolution? Do you know that the case where the condomium which clashed in around 10 years back is still under arbitration now?

Learning law in Malaysia does not really useful for us citizens but for lawyers. However, it is really fun to play with law, where you can twist the discussion of the fact to enable one to win in his or her claim. All we have to know is, there is always no absolutely right and wrong in law.

Story comes to the end, I still manage to do quite ok in my exam.

Funny Pictures

All these were done during the first few days I bought the nw laptop....Haha, having so much fun playing with it.

Weird Ben

Siamese Ben

Battle between Ben and Ben

Ben without mouth and nose....Yier, ALIEN!!!!!

I don't know what to call this

Indian style??

Want people to belasah him punya Ben

Another Siamese Ben

Haha, this is my sister. She has fun playing with this software also.

Fuiyoo...Ben is kissing Ben...(Ben doesn't want Jess anymore, hahahha)

Haha, this is so cute and funny. Is like a alien meditating

Shut up because Jess wants to study hard to pass for examination

Last but not least, I am going to send this to all my friends who will be having birthday....(Joking nia)

CUTE!!!!

Having a baby to look at me in this way when he cannot see me in some position. Do you know how cute he is???OMG!!!

Madagascar II-Escape Africa

It was on Friday where Ben and me went for a movie after several weeks of not watching movies outside. Just to get us some relaxness. This semster is super heavy for Ben where he has to take 4 subjects-Business Law, Statistical Simulation for Actuary and Finance, Pendidikan Moral(sucks subject) and Probability and Statistics II(repeating subject) and this semester lasts only 7 weeks. We have not enough enough time to understand everything, even for the law, I don't really know how deep have we go.

However, let's get back to the topic.

"I like to move it move it. He likes to move it move it. He likes to move it move it. We like to.....MOVE IT" Haha, the legendary songs in Madagascar. It is nice, funny and of course for the last two important elements--touching and meaningful.

Dancing is not what a real lion will do. So how does it matter when a lion can't roar? It doesn't mean that you are useless. The thing that matters is whether you want to do it. The lion, Laex in th cartoon has shown us this theory. When the jungle is out of water, it has applied his knowledge learnt in US zoo to save the animals in the jungle. And he did it. Thanks a lot to the stupid lion, Makunga who just know to overpower the others, being a selfish leader.

True love has also been shown here. A person who loves you take care and beware of everything you like and do not like,, which implies that he or she understands you well. DO NOt go for people who just look at the outer layer of you.

There is also another lesson I learned from the movie, special. Don't be sad because you are ordinary like others, when you do not have an excellent results, when you have an ordinary outlook, when you have a usual height, just that when you are ordinary in everything. Your true friends who really care about you can recognize you when you are in a big crowd. What you have to do is to appreciate taht particular friend and also not being upset because you find no difference between you and others. There must be something within you where it cannot be found in others.

**MUST GO WATCH THIS MOVIE!!!IT IS HARDOLY NICE!!!**

Before I forget, Ben and me went for a lunch-dinner in Carls Jr. I especially love the fries there, there are fat and crispy. We ordered one large set of Cheeseburger with beef. Look at the picture and you could see how giant it is.Ben's hand is in the picture. Can you see how big the cup is?

The burger doesn't look that big, but it is fulfilling.He ate this at 4pm and he never ate anything the whole day.

And this fries, they are double the the size of the fires in McDonalds no matter the size of proportion or the size of the fries.

My new laptop

Wanted for a laptop so much yet but since I didn't need it so I never thought of buying it.

However nowadays, during this new semester, I especially feel that I need a laptop so much. Furthermore, since the days I started giving tuition, I seldom be in the house.

And hence, after talking to mom about buying a notebook, I finally have one now!!!^^

It is a ASUS F8v series. Outlook is just okok, but the technology is advance. Having 3 types of recognition to log into my account, which are the ordinary password, fingerprint logon(which I don't think it is useful for me, since I always cannot get the same fingerprint) and also the latest smartlogon(easy logon with just one look).

I think I am outdated to the computer technology. I was overexcited when I knew that our handphones can actually be the remote control for the computer. Oklar, I am really outdated.

That's all for now, when I discover more things in this notebook, I will report again.

Speechless

A father tells his son that he is financially tight when at the same time he will be going for an expensive vacation and when his son asks him to buy a laptop for his studies use.

Why on earth a person can go for an expensive vacation when at the same time he is financially tight? There is one thing you call credit card, I know that. Yet does it mean that you don't have to pay back?Does it mean that it could be the reason to excuse youself from being said a not considerating father?

The father has even asked for the child to spend everything in the government loan when the child tries to have a saving of it as a precaution when he cannot pay them back in the future. The father says that there is no need to save now, you only start saving when you are working. How many people really save money even more that the salary given can just merely support his life? Yes, it is right that the child is having a high possibility for getting a Rm3k job, but can the father just diminish the risk of getting a RM 1.3K job by his son??

It is unacceptable for me. I am really speechless

Miss My Hardos.

Long since I wrote the last blog.

Finally I have the time to read almost everyone's blog.
It is tedious anyway.
I am sitting on a chair in a cyber cafe located in SS2 Petaling Jaya, if you know, INC.
You must be curious why I am here.

Ya, even though you have never asked me anything, the answer is I am waiting for Ben and other coursemates, for their "dato"-ing.

Question marks on your head now?oklar, it is Joe Sern's favourite, the frozen throne, which are more familiarly recognized-Dota.




MISS YA ALL, hardos!

Bad Daughter

Complained much after helping mom with her society work,I feel I am so bad.

I had my whole day for watching tv and then left the studying part for after 9pm program. And then when things start disturbing me.

Throwing blames to others when things are not going right, this is a common human nature. What is even more terrible happens to me, and that is what I should have changed centuries ago.

Failed

Applying passport with RM300 just for test,
Paying Rm300++ for a test,

And finally I failed it....Haha...

U might think I am insane, I have failed my professional paper yet I am laughing right here.

Actually I have expected that I would not be successful in my test.

The test is quite easy yet it requires having 23 questions answered correctly over 30 questions given.Sound sarcastic?Well, it is professional paper

pictures os rose as I promised

too many pictures of the same thing seems bored. so i decided to only put 2 pics here