Finally I have a great chance and some mood to post a blog.

Erm, my classes started straight away on Monday, but I didn't go for the first class, because I had not pay my bill. Thus on the first day I just went there, know some new friends and lastly went to pay the bill in the main block, WHICH IS LOCATED ON THE OTHER ROAD.

Then the second day, I started driving to UTAR. Erm, I think I did mention about my first class there. It was basic professional writing, on the first lesson we did some warm up. We were asked for the answer of these simple questions: What is your name? How young are you? What are your interests? The class gave all kind of funny answers. I remembered there was a student answered for the question: What are your interests? : I like toplay dangerous stuff. Oklar, he meant that he likes jungle trekking and other outdoor dangerous activities.

The next class after Basic Professional Writing was to be five hours later. Initially I planned to go back home and have a good nap, then after waiting my friend long, I decided to follow them to 1 Utama. A friend of this friend was fetching us there. Erm, quite surprising, we actually wanted to go 1 Utama to have lunch but the girl, my friend's friend, erm, Amy, she drove us to a place nearby the main block.
Emily:Where are you going?
Fanny: Aren't we going to have lunch?
Amy: Yah.
Fanny: Then why you stop here?
Amy: Eat here lar, the 'tong shui'(dessert) here is very nice.
Jess+Emily+Fanny: Oh, ok.
Before I say something, they re all elder than me. I didn't get used to their style of communication at first.

What the hell was happening? We came to a stall which had very few customers compare to other stalls nearby. And the food served there was very little, just economic rice(Kavi, your Jak Fan) and Wan Tan Mee. Oh ya, and also some desserts. Actually for me I don't really mind to eat there, just as long as it is cheap, better than spending almost RM10 to eat in 1U.
Erm, but the Wan Tan Mee there not really nice lar.
After Lunch we went to 1U to shop, first shop to go-MNG, we tested sphagetti there, and pleas trust me, I just wanted to try for fun. I think we were in the fitting room for more than 15 minutes, took some pictures and then discussed about the sphagetti. Hey, guess what happen next. I bought the sphagetti I tried. Kavi, the sphagetti was too comfortable, although the price isn't cheap but I just couldn't stand not to buy it. Forever 21 was the shop we went in after that, seriously, I don't think the things, the clothes there are cheap, and there were nothing there that I think worth for that price.Yet I don't understand why the other two girls get to spend much of their shopping time inside there.

Ok, went back to UTAR after that. I looked at the timetable adn found out that the class should be in PD208, and for this week we should transfer to PD617. Sat for long in PD617 and after the lecturer came in only one guy came to tell us that we were in the wrong class. So damn embarassed!!!
Haiz, talk about this class, it is a boring class, somemore we have to buy a Rm68 textbook, which just enables us to use for 1 Semester, also the lecturer doesn't not speak a very well English also. And the classroom sucks, no aircond! What to do?Just have to bear with it, since UTAR is a non profit organization.

Wednesday, there was a lecture going on, Discrete Mathematics with Application. You know whta we learnt? Penyataan Benar, penyataan palsu, which we learn in FORM 4, Modern Maths. OMG, she took 3 lecture hours to teach that and I wonder will she be teaching this again in next week.
And Calculus 1, first class inside there, we just learnt the theory of limitation, not really difficult.
And lastly for Accounting, guess what,our syllabus for Accounting is same as A LEVEL accounting syllabus in Taylor's College(currently Taylor's University College), using the same book as them. Do you think I should doubt the quality there?

If this is going to continue to happen in the coming 3 years, I doubt will I be a good actuary. Somemore, for the first year, we have almost 4 months break. Is this really what's going on in Uni? Is actuarial science just as simple as Form 4?Or just like A LEVEL? And then, 4 months break, that means we learn few subjects less, at least 4 subjects less.
Tell you another thing, there are 2 subjects which we learn in Year 2, one of the university in Canada they want their students to pass those 2 subjects before they can get admission to actuarial science course.

I really doubt should I change my course or Uni if this is what happening in the coming 3 years.

~..~Jess^Dear~..~

Can I call it a disaster morning?Erm...ok, it's not that terrible.It was a dizzy morning.

Woke up early in the morning, 7am, and then follow Auntie Cat to Section 14, she fetched me to UTAR PD campus. I was so blank...thank god this time I am a lot more brave. I asked a student there to get to the general office.

Queued up for few minutes, finally I got to the office lady there.
Me: Sorry, can I get the timetable?I am a new intake.
She: Oh, you have to copy outside there.
Unfortunately, I was not clear or I was blur.
Me: Sorry?
She: You have to copy outside there, at the board there....
Me: Oh, ok, thanks.

Scanned through the board, searching for the 2 alphabets-AS. Ok, there it is....
There were boxes and numbers and alphabets here and there.

Ok, bear with it. It's just gonna take you few minutes.

My gosh, what is this?Why are there so many numbers???
What is AS1S1T1?What is AS1S1T2?And what is AS1S1T3???
After cscrewing up my mind for few ten seconds, finally I get to figure out....As1= Actuarial Science Year 1, S1= Semester 1, T1= Group/Class 1 and so on. But what group am I in???Nevermind, find out later.

But after that, another problem came. UCCM1303. What is this? SOH HC. What is this again???Ok, should be the code and lecturer. Nevermind, copy first.

The half way I was copying, I saw another girl copying also.So headed to ask her.
Me: Erm, sorry, what course are you taking?
She: Actuarial Science.
Me: Are you in Year 1?
She: Yes.
Me: Oh, I am from the same course as you. Do you know how to find out which class should we belong to?
She: I don't know also. I am also new here.
Me: Did you came for the orientation?
She: Yes.You?
Me: No. I just registered myself on Wednesday itself. Can I join you all the way we go?
She: Oh, sure. I have 2 friends here, whom I know on the Orientation Day.
Me: I see. What's your name?
She: Emily. You?
Me: Yun Ceat. (She couldn't hear it clearly, so I changed to tell her "Jess") Jess. (Hope you won't be surprised if next time you hear people calling me Ceat, especially Hardo Ceat, haha, it's created by our Hardo G16 Hardo Gang)
She: Oh. Jessica that Jess?
Me: Yes. Erm, but my full name is Jeslene. Nice to meet you!
She: Nice to meet you too!

Then, she borrowed me her timetable to copy. Good thing I don't have to stare at the board and looking through the glass for those small tiny alphabets and numbers. Tell you, if you are there, you can even copy the time wrongly. Imagine Wild Boar Nic is there copying, haha, he will have his eyes can't even see his eyeballs. Opps, sorry Nic, but you are cute with the small eyes.

We went back to general office to ask which class are we supposed to be in. The lady claimed that the name list is at the board too, beside the timetable. In the same time, I wanted to hand up my papers which are required to pass on back to the Admin Office.
Me: Can I know what is my registration number?
She: Oh, it's on your bill receipt.
I took it out and showed her.
She: Oh, you haven't pay your bill, after you pay your bill then you can know it.
Me: Ok. (I was thinking: Then I am not supposed to be in any class today.)

Few minutes after that, Emily's friend came. Her name is Fanny, Hmm, a slim girl, I thought.
She is the girl taking actuarial science as mentioned by Emily just now.

Few minutes later again, I called my mom to ask my brother to come and fetch me. Of course, no class what, what for I stay there?Might as well ask him to bring along the cheque to pay the fees, so tomorrow I can enter the class without any doubt and also need not to rush to pay fees.
Anyway, the fees is just RM4921, even cheaper than 1 semester of SAM in Taylor's. I must say, it is very cheap.(Ok, those who can't afford please don't feel this.I'm sorry if this really offended you.)

It was quite a wastage of time for being in UTAR and not going for any class, just came to pay fees. So, that's a dizzy day passed and I am now sitting in front of the computer posting this blog after eating delicious Spicy Pan Mee. Hey, Kien Seng, I ate you. Haha. Btw, enjoy your working although it is not that fun. At least you get to have some experience.

*Tomorrow I am going to Drive to UTAR~~~HAHAHA~*- by a get-so-excited-cz driving girl

~..~Jess^Dear~..~

Okay, just realized that sleeping still able to help me to get over bad mood and bad feeling. Again, it's a brand new day today, erm....please excuse the super gold fish eyes when I woke up.

Woke up in the morning I still could remember my offered course in UTAR but I couldn't cry anymore....I am now numb(hope I will not again after few days, don't wish to have another day with super gold fish eyes).

Well, think back again, I have a car.I repeat, a car, I might have a new car, or I will not. Yet it is ok, it's very good enough to have my own car....get to travel anywhereI want....this is what I always wish to have....So, it's not a disaster or sorrow to study in UTAR actually.Come on girl, life is full with difficulties, you have overcome one of yours! Wow, great job for you.(You guys might think that what a silly and psyco girl who likes to talk to herself, erm but this is the way to motivate myself).

Thanks to Kavi who gave me advices, thanks to Li Anne who supports in Cbox, thanks to yin Ling for giving some information of what I need to do on the first day to be in UTAR, thanks to Sher Ryn to be coincidently be in the same course as I am and promised me to guide me on the first day on UTAR.
And also thanks to those who read this blog and the previous but did not scold me in anywhere. :P

Read Adrian's latest blog just now, " when you like a person, just tell him/her. If you do not have a gut like this, you don't deserve him/her". Yah, Adrian, you are right, I support you with all my heart, all my energy, haha. Erm...but what if you do not wish to have a relationship with the person?
Love can be simple yet it can be complicated in the same time. Adrian, maybe to you love is simple. I will not visit you with parang, don't worry. But for me, love between a couple is not so simple. I have seen so many examples throughout my life, and all these still give me one conclusion: To build a long lasting relationship, understanding and tolerance are the most important keys. And, looks doesn't matter. Just go for the one that meet your eyes, not who is considered handsome or pretty or famous in the entire. How much does good looking worth? One day when he or she gets older, he or she will not be as pretty as he or she is now. Erm...one day ago I was drown into tears, another day here I am giving lectures...what a suck.

Well, just want to shout my feeling, that's why I consider for long time to be in a relationship. Whoever doesn't agree with me, you go your way, I go my way.Your way of accepting love may be right.

Got to help my mom for love letter, hope this time I will not get myself hurt. Chaoz!

~..~Jess^Dear~..~

On 3rd of January, when all offices have their first opening in Year 2007, I gave up the chance to go swimming with Hardo Gang just to aplly my admission to UTAR, taking Bachelor of Actuarial Science(Honours).

And today, 5th of January, I checked on UTAR website for my admission, I am offered a place...but I did not feel much happy, doubting honestly am I really happy to go UTAR. Actually I really don't wish to go UTAR, I want to experience the life in oversea....yet, to do twinning for actuarial science, I can only go US and my only choice is to go Inti College if I really want to go out of the country....

Back to quite a few days ago, my aunt's family came and I told them about my choice to study either Nutrition or Actuarial Science. My uncle suggested me to study in UTAR so the next day my aunt's family and my family went to UTAR straight away to ask for further information...I was quite doubtful with their quality in actuarial science and till now I am still doubtful with their quality. Since it is a new course in UTAR I don't think their standard will go any further. But after looking at the course fees, my parents were quite demanding that I will have to go UTAR. since that time, I knew that my chance to go oversea will be very very low...I was crying for few days...sounds stupid, right?

But in the same time I have to be a filial daughter, I have to be considerate, to let them enjoy their life in the coming years, not to suffer by taking loan to pay my fees and living cost in oversea, I made a last minute decision, the few days before actuarial science in UTAR starts classes, to apply to UTAR, with my heart doubting is my decision my choice?Is my decision my wish?Is my decision go right? Actually there are boons and banes either I choose UTAR or Inti.

UTAR:
Advantages:
1. I get to get a car.
2. I get to learn yoga.
3. The fees there is VERY cheap. (No offence to poor family)
4. I get to buy a lot of things.
5. I don't have to pay loan after I graduate from my degree.
6. My parents will not have to live a harder life to pay loan for me.
7. My parents will not have to worry for me.

Disadvantages:
1. I can't go oversea.
2. I will study a lower quality course.
3. I can't fulfill my dream to go oversea.
4. Maybe I have to go Kampar to continue my studies since the new camous is in Kampar.


Inti College:
Advantages:
1. I can fulfill my dream.
2. I can take a good quality course.

Disadvantages:
1. I have to get loan and pay back after I come out for work.
2. I still have to walk to and back from college for around 2 years since I will not have a car.


Obviously study in UTAR carries more benefits yet I don't like UTAR, ok, for no reason, or I should say I have less chance to brush up my English(again, no offence to UTAR students, I know there are still people who speak English). It is not a good reason but I still don't like UTAR(sorry UTAR, you are not attracting me, I prefer a better quality course, I am a perfectionist).

Yet, I am not able to fulfil my dream now, I am offered a place in UTAR now, what a pity this will be my second regret.Hope this doesn't take me a long time to recover from my pain.I have to tell myself: STOP CRYING PLEASE. CRY WILL GIVE YOU NOTHING. STUDYING IN UTAR IS BETTER THAN NOT GETTING A CHANCE TO STUDY. AT LEAST YOU HAVE A CAR. YOU HAVE TO BE NUMB WITH THIS.

~..~Jess^Dear~..~